I don't feel safe.

[Jannabear]

I live in a house with someone who used to physically and emotionally abuse me, another who emotionally abused me, a racoon living in the ceiling and vent, mold damage out the ass, and I'm isolated from my friends.
I don't know where to go to get help, I've had alot of depression issues for months now, I'm sick of living like this.

[AllRight]

Hope you can find a way out of that situation.  Any way you can move out?

[Jannabear]

Hope you can find a way out of that situation.  Any way you can move out?

Not currently, I'm old enough to be emancipated, but I can't get a job, and I'm dealing with emotional issues at the moment.

[AllPurposeAtheist]

Do it anyway..At your age I was hitch hiking coast to coast in the dead of winter quite often..
There are shelters in nearly every metropolitan area and many smaller towns as well.  They're not the greatest places to live, but they usually have some pretty decent services to help you get on your feet and most offer counseling for emotional issues. 
Most are pretty safe places although some can be rather violent from time to time, but probably no more than the situation you describe yourself being in right now.
When I was your age almost every shelter was run by either the Salvation army or some other religious nutcase organization.  Most are still run by these organizations, but the rules are much more relaxed on whether they can require you to pray and sing for your dinner.  Back when I was still kicking about it wasn't uncommon to have to sing some gospel bullshit just to get a meal..

[Baruch]

Not currently, I'm old enough to be emancipated, but I can't get a job, and I'm dealing with emotional issues at the moment.

Sometimes a safe house is bunking with friends, or getting a decent boyfriend.

[Jannabear]

Sometimes a safe house is bunking with friends, or getting a decent boyfriend.

I have a girl who I may start dating, I'm friends with her, I could ask her if she can help me through this.

[Jannabear]

Do it anyway..At your age I was hitch hiking coast to coast in the dead of winter quite often..
There are shelters in nearly every metropolitan area and many smaller towns as well.  They're not the greatest places to live, but they usually have some pretty decent services to help you get on your feet and most offer counseling for emotional issues. 
Most are pretty safe places although some can be rather violent from time to time, but probably no more than the situation you describe yourself being in right now.
When I was your age almost every shelter was run by either the Salvation army or some other religious nutcase organization.  Most are still run by these organizations, but the rules are much more relaxed on whether they can require you to pray and sing for your dinner.  Back when I was still kicking about it wasn't uncommon to have to sing some gospel bullshit just to get a meal..

My options regarding this are extremely limited.
I'm very reliant on my parents insurance for estradiol (Estrogen), because I'm trans, and that also makes it hard to go to a shelter, many people are turned down for being trans because they don't know where to place them.

[PickelledEggs]

My options regarding this are extremely limited.
I'm very reliant on my parents insurance for estradiol (Estrogen), because I'm trans, and that also makes it hard to go to a shelter, many people are turned down for being trans because they don't know where to place them.

This is going to sound cold, but you're going to have to make a choice between your estrogen that makes you feel more of yourself, and a feeling of safety.

I know that the estrogen is a very big deal and feeling like you're in the wrong body can feel horrible, as I've heard you and many other trans people say, but if it's a choice between that and feeling safe... you will have to let one go, at least temporarily. I know that's hard to hear, but that's the fact of the matter...

[PickelledEggs]

Who knows? maybe there is a way to get both if you leave? but you won't know until you actually go for it.

[Jannabear]

This is going to sound cold, but you're going to have to make a choice between your estrogen that makes you feel more of yourself, and a feeling of safety.

I know that the estrogen is a very big deal and feeling like you're in the wrong body can feel horrible, as I've heard you and many other trans people say, but if it's a choice between that and feeling safe... you will have to let one go, at least temporarily. I know that's hard to hear, but that's the fact of the matter...

Considering I nearly killed myself over thinking I wouldn't get to transition, it's safe to say I'll pick the estrogen.

[Jannabear]

Who knows? maybe there is a way to get both if you leave? but you won't know until you actually go for it.

There's a black market for it, but it's dangerous, and I can't afford it.

[PickelledEggs]

Considering I nearly killed myself over thinking I wouldn't get to transition, it's safe to say I'll pick the estrogen.

I guess you're going to have to live with not feeling safe for a while, until you don't have to rely on them anymore for it. I don't know how long that will take, but hold in there until then.

[PickelledEggs]

Yeah I would stay away from the back market... especially if it's dangerous. If you're already feeling unsafe, you don't need any extra stressers like that.

[Bluewind]

First off, can you get to counseling?  A lot of places offer a sliding scale fee so you can get it for cheap. Sometimes just talking to someone in a safe environment is a great help. Also, he or she might be able to help you find the help you need to get out or at least get a job so you can save up to leave.

If the girl you might want to date lives with her parents, you will have to talk to them about the situation. Hopefully you can find a solution where you are safer and don't have to get off estrogen.

How friendly is your community to those in the LGBT+ community?  If it's bad (like bible belt) you might have to be willing to travel to a better area that's more accepting. How well do you pass? Also, do you have a unisex name or have you changed your birth certificate? It might help job wise because a lot if people are idiots about trans*.

I know you are very young, but after a suicidal ideation that might have resulted in an attempt, I hope you got evaluated for an antidepressant. Did you get on one or did the estrogen help instead?

[Blackleaf]

A lot of counselors offer services pro bono. It wouldn't hurt to check. And like Blue said, they could help you search for the help you need regarding your estrogen and living space. I hope the best for you.